Thanks for noticing I haven't posted a poem in a while, Mary. I'm glad you watch. This prayer isn't mine originally. The first two lines come from Byron Katie I believe. I like her prayer and the rest is mine. Its a timely prayer for me as I go into the new year because it's kind of a goal of mine as well.
God spare me from the desire
For love, approval, and appreciation.
These life necessities have become my
Albatross, even as I kick one after another
Into a place they belong. They always
Rear their heads again and cause me pain.
I have so much love in my life, I no longer
Want to beg or try to find a way to
Sway someone into liking or loving me.
The freedom I feel just saying the words
I give this up takes such a load off me.
My desire for approval is overwhelming
When faced with people who disapprove
And there will always be those who do.
I am weakened by my desire to sway them
I think less of myself if I allow that.
The big one, God spare me from seeking
Appreciation. Lift that from my shoulders
Let my expectations wane and find other
Avenues to find my appreciation, those paths inside
Myself. My hard work, dedication, gifts, will
Have to be given with a release from expectation.
I’m always shocked, hurt when people aren’t
Appreciative, but they find difficult what I find necessary.
To live a better life, I’ll seek to rid myself of desires
Not met. I’ll love, be approving, and show my appreciation.
Satisfaction with what is grants me peace. Living
My life with grace and thankfulness is an answer.