Friday, May 25, 2012

Always



What gathers the wind will bring you to me
in a breeze or a touch from a limb against my skin.
Not of here, somewhere in between you and me,
a place I only get glimpses of when you are near.

I see your gift when an insect appears,
your message in a penny heads up.
I no longer question.  To be a part of this-- I feel,
or you will be gone before I have a complete thought.

I hear your voice when the door opens, feel your presence.
I heard what you told me when I walked in the dark wet night,
though no words were spoken.
My tympanic drum is tuned to your whispers.

I sense you in every way..gentle and true
I don’t share except with those who love you, too.
I would not dishonor you or your memory
by telling our secrets to people who can’t see.

24 comments:

Mary said...

I understand, Judy. This saddens me greatly, but I am so glad he is always close to you, and you see so many signs of his presence.

Willow said...

Beautiful, the connection you have, to always be close, to know he's there with you.

Laurie Kolp said...

This brings tears to my eyes, but I'm with Mary... it's a blessing to feel him with you like you do. {a big virtual hug from me to you}

keiths ramblings said...

So moving.

Hannah said...

This breaks my heart and fills it at the same time. I'm so sorry and so happy for you at the same time. Thank you for sharing so genuinely.

Giancarlo said...

Sono il nostro futuro!! ciao

Andy David said...

Dear Judy,
Sadly, love and sorrow sometimes goes together. Thanks for sharing this sensitive post.

Mary said...

Judy, I am visiting this post for a second time, now that you have added photos. It breaks my heart, really does.

Know that I love Brian too!

Sherry Blue Sky said...

Such a beautiful boy, Judy. I so love "what gathers the wind will bring you to me." So sad, so loving. Beautifully written.

Abin Chakraborty said...

very beautifully sensitively written.one can feel the moving pathos of the lines and yet the issue is such that making any comment almost seems like undue trespassing.I wish you well and may the connection continue to provide some form of solace.

Jinksy said...

though no words were spoken.
My tympanic drum is tuned to your whispers.

Beautiful awareness...

Judy Roney said...

Your responses give me strength through my tears and peace.
I know you do, Mary. What a comfort and joy.

Anonymous said...

I have visited this place and poem many times since it was posted..there is another dimension that is so near and the love of a mother is strong and can reach there....Thinking of you..CA

Ann said...

What a loving poignant piece, Judy.

shawnacy said...

beautiful, judy. there are lines in here that shine -
'I heard what you told me when I walked in the dark wet night,' and the idea of keeping things secret from those who can't see.

thoughts are with you.

Kerry O'Connor said...

All I can add to these thoughts is how much I admire your tenacity to live through the worst experience that could be visited on a mother.

kaykuala said...

The strength and the tenacity to go on is blessed with the awareness of his presence. Very touching, Judy!

Hank

Sherry Blue Sky said...

I came back for another read. The photos make it just that much more heartbreaking. So sad for you. As Kerry says, it is the worst thing that can happen to a mother.

Jacqueline Howett said...

I did not realise until I read the comments.

Sorry for your loss.

Your words are touching and beautifully arranged!

KB said...

Beautiful tribute.

Rosemary Nissen-Wade said...

So full of true feeling!

Ashling said...

Heartbreaking...touching, sad, and written with such love.

hyperCRYPTICal said...

A beautiful tribute to someone so obviously well loved.

Anna :o]

Kim Nelson said...

What a gorgeous poem, Judy. Soothes and consoles in its own way. it is lovely that you feel him, love him, know him, even now.